| Sunday, May 8th, 2005 |
| 10:40 pm |
I HATE DRAMA!!!! Current Mood:  im tired of it all |
| Tuesday, December 21st, 2004 |
| 12:26 am |
IM FINALLY (OFFICIALLY) 16!!! YAAAAAY!! Current Mood:  IM 16 NOW |
| Monday, December 13th, 2004 |
| 7:02 pm |
ughhhh i hate them...actually i dont, but right now i do
y do they always do these things to me? sometimes i wish they just didnt care at all about me. they dont trust me, believe me, they dont even know me anymore. the smallest thing and they go crazy on me.i know they love me (or so they say) but it doesnt always feel like it. they tease me, yell at me, and they say its all to help me. well it's not helping. it never has and never will. even when i bring wat they do to their attention they ignore it or deny it ever happens. are they really blind to everything they do and the way they make me feel? You can choose your friends...but you are born with your family lately ive been feeling i cant even choose friend or handle my family i think me and my family are doomed to bad luck i hope next year is better i hate when people think they know me when they dont...and even more i hate when people talk shit about you or believe shit about me when they dont know me... for those that at least know me a bit i hope you would know that i wouldnt do at least half the things some people hear and say about me comment if u would like, although this post was mostly just for me to vent w/o telling the commplete story i guess...and i guess im just stupid and upset so watever -Rachel ps my birthday is in 7 days...and at this point i m not really looking forward to it anymore pps if u have something to say about me, say it to my face Real friends stab you in the front Current Mood:  Who knows wat mood im realy inCurrent Music: silence...just thoughts |
| Sunday, December 5th, 2004 |
| 5:41 pm |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY!!!!!!!
ps i love lily!!!! Current Mood:  nothing |
| Tuesday, November 16th, 2004 |
| 6:03 pm |
I Havent updated in a while so here goes
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna runaway? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down With no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desparate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding such a horrible day dont completely like that song but the lyrics seemed to fit ♥ comment if you love me...or if u wanna make me feel better Current Mood:  so many bad moods i cant pickCurrent Music: Im not okay(i promise) |
| Sunday, September 26th, 2004 |
| 9:21 pm |
I hate the world today You're so good to me I know but I can't change school sucks i dont know how im gunna get the right grades that i need grrrrr soo stressful everything is stressful Current Mood:  blah |
| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004 |
| 6:21 pm |
last day of summer noooooooooooo i dont wanna go to school!!! summer was too good to end |
| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004 |
| 9:25 pm |
Hells ya im 93% gangsta lol(thats right!) and im sooooo hapy i get a pink hummer (its wat ive always wanted!!) Me and Ali have the same gangsta name and gang yaaay haha but im more gangsta than her |
| Sunday, August 22nd, 2004 |
| 10:58 pm |
im the biggest idiot i just thought u would all like to know that if u didnt know it yet Current Mood: disapointed in myselfCurrent Music: the tv and jordan |
| Friday, August 6th, 2004 |
| 4:25 pm |
yay its certain i will be as cool as napoleon dynamite HECK YEAH!! haha what a great movie! |
| Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004 |
| 12:02 am |
WOW its been a while!!
im back from camp...yaaaay...but i wanna go bak now camp is like my "safe place" kinda (dont ask i dunno know how to explain it) this past week was fun though i got to see ppl i havent seen in a long time but i still havent seen a lot of the people i wanna see well i cant really think of wat to write so i gues im done comment if u want! <33333 ME Current Mood:  drainedCurrent Music: the televizzle |
| Tuesday, July 6th, 2004 |
| 12:29 am |
im going to camp!!!!
hey everybody im leaving for camp tomorrow...well actually today, YAAAY!!!! im goin to b gone for a long time though but u all can write to me!!! the address is... Rachel Berton-Sniderman, TASC 34342 Mulholland Hwy. Malibu, CA 90265 Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: the TV and the telephone at the same time lucky me hehe |
| Monday, May 24th, 2004 |
| 7:15 pm |
wow i havent updated in a while now but not too much is new just been doin the usual
-hangin w/ the girlies
-hangin out with my lily desiree paige
-spendin bus time and after school with my girlie chelsea
-sleepovers
-movies
-going to school
-going to things w/ my parents
-listening to 40 min long speeches at a benefit for someone i dont really know
and im blanking on everything else but ya i really gotta get my grades up and i drive in almost 6 months i hope yaaaaay!
i really need to get myself a car...but first mayb it would b better to get my permit i really gotta do that...cant wait
well there are a lot of ppl i wanna chill w/ that i havent gotten a chance to so come on ppl call me and let me know wen and where and everything
♥ you all!
comment if you love me...but you dont have to Current Mood: drainedCurrent Music: you are the only one-i dont know who sings it |
| Tuesday, May 11th, 2004 |
| 6:36 pm |
i dont know if i agree with all this but i did it so i thought i mise well put it up ♥ Current Mood:  amusedCurrent Music: the TV |
| Wednesday, April 28th, 2004 |
| 9:08 pm |
im officially ungrounded wooooohoooooo yaaaaay!!!!!!!! *finally* (it seems like its been forever) but ya so today was frosh/soph league finals for swimming and im really upset that i didnt make it. i mean i know im not the best swimmer but i still feel like i could have done better than some that made it...but i guess there is always next year. i swear my coach hates me though and it really pisses me off cause i know it may seem like i dont always care but i swear i care more bout it then wat shows. i felt so out of place kinda today like i was at a swim meet but i wasnt swimming...it made me sad. all for now cant think of nething else at the momment... "im not a perfect person, theres many things i wish i didnt do" "i found a reason for me to change who i used to be, a reason to start over new, and the reason is you" Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: The Reason-hoobastank |
| Wednesday, April 14th, 2004 |
| 8:52 pm |
*Losing hope is easy whe your only friend is gone, and everytime you look around it all just seems to change.* "Everybody Knows That Something's Wrong, But Nobody Knows What's Going On." just something to think about i guess ♥ RACHEL ♥ Current Mood: very calm for onceCurrent Music: ocean avenue-yellowcard<333 |
| Sunday, April 11th, 2004 |
| 12:28 pm |
...WHY...
i dont understand this...
how can it be possible to not want to like some1 but yet deep down u realize u do like that and u cant help thinking about them
how is it that u can b happy yet sad at the same time
how is it possible?
... comment ... if u want to
♥♥♥U Know Who<333 Current Mood:  thinking very hardCurrent Music: my immortal-evenesence (sp.?) |
| Wednesday, April 7th, 2004 |
| 1:09 am |
this is jessica lee and lily gray ali gold updating for good old rachel berton -sniderman. we would just like to saay heeeeeeyyyyy!!!!! so al of you fuckers out there comment cuz u know you want to cuz u know u love us and especiallly RACHEL!!! woot woot!! biotch mo fucka biotch mo fucker biotch mo mo fucker damn right huh. we all love you, well most of you!!! <3 USSSSS!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Current Mood:  lets bounceCurrent Music: alis farting |
| Thursday, February 26th, 2004 |
| 9:56 pm |
im FINALLY updating yaaay
HELLO my ppl i havent updated in soooo long. i think a lot has happened since my last entry though. i wantd to thank everyone that commented and tried helping on my last entry though. i love you all!!but neways i dont think i can tell everything that has been happenin so ill just talk bout this week. this week and today have been pretty boring. workouts for swimming have been really hard and tiring. i was gunna go to a dance class tonight but ya i didnt. and thats all for my boring life. well ok bizatchs im gunna go cause im super duper tired. love u all o and by the way comment ppl!! ~Rachel~ Current Mood: drainedCurrent Music: good riddance-greenday |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004 |
| 9:44 am |
Ok ppl I need some help. I don't understand a few things. As some of you know i have been pretty happy lately. and my last update had to do with why. But right now Im feeling like an idiotic peice of shit. I dont understand it. How can i get sooooo happy about something I know can turn around and hit me twice as hard just as fast as everything happened in the first place. Y do i allow myself to fall for guys so fast? Y do i always get used? Y do i always get hurt? Wat is the point?
comment plllllzzzz i need help.
~Rachel~ Current Mood: depressed |
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